brute honesty.

As Siva once said, perhaps i'll learn the ills of being brutally frank sometime in the long run. Perhaps i've already experienced it. Nevertheless, i dont see a reason why i should be hypocritical about my feelings about certain issues.

I lie. About many things. I despise. Certain people. I dislike. Certain people's attitudes. Still, i do manage to tolerate. Many things, many people.

But i dont see a reason to put on a fascade to face them daily. I hate lying to myself about my feelings, about my thoughts. I do not understand why people choose to pretend to be things they are not and would never be.

I hope for the best, for myself, for the people around me. Yet, i know some things will never be, and i dont try to deceive myself by lying through my teeth about them. I dont see how sugar coating issues makes things better.

I think the people around me currently live too sheltered lives. Saying that they're living in a bubble of ideal beliefs would be too exaggerated. Perhaps they just have some smaller and somewhat twisted ideals. But before i digress, saying that people in bigger and better bubbles despise us ? How many personal encounters have you about being despised ? Being disappointed and being despised is different. So different.

Being disappointed means the person had hopes in you. Just that you failed to live up to his hopes and expectations.

Being despised means the person never believed in you in the first place.


Are we really despised ? I doubt so. Perhaps only by ourselves. After all, if you dont even have faith in yourself, how can you expect someone else to have faith in you ?

Humans are such paradoxical creatures. Wanting people to believe in something they dont even believe in the first place.

If you've disappointed or have been despised, you know what's the best thing to do, show those people how wrong they are. Since i doubt people would be bothered by disappointing me, for those who think i've despised you, show me.

Prove me wrong.